Im sick of this same routine im in. I am tired of all this bs. I need to and am going to start shaking some things up. If you dont like it not my problem deal with it. Im sick of feeling like no one takes me seriously at anything. I am not going to put up with it anymore. I dont care what people think of me anymore honestly if you dont like me oh well thats good for you but i really dont freakin care.....
I have decided lately that i want to try to find a girl to date and be serious with. Im 18 and i want to get married semi young so i figure now is a good time to start looking. Its just hard to try to find someone. Especially because girls are so hard to read. I can never seem to be able to tell what they are thinkin or how they actually feel never can tell if there joking around or being serious most the time and its super frustratinggg
I applied a bunch of places today hoping i get a job within the next week or so. That would mean i can finally get my tattoo and get a new car
Peace out
Brandon
So today was the most boring day of my life i think. I had to wake up at 9 am to go pick up my cap and gown which who ever designed those hats is an idiot they are the ugliest things i have ever seen in my life. But yeah any ways after that i tried to go back to sleep and of course i couldnt fall back asleep so i just got up a showered and stuff..Then from that point on i did absolutley nothing everyone i tried to hang out with was busy or something so i sat at home all friggen day by myself i about went crazy..
Tomorrow should be a much better day. i have to go set up my camper early tom morning me and some of my friends are camping out tom night and getting ready for my grad party tom so that should be a good time
Im going to bed tho
Brandon
Super excited for this weekend. Simon is coming to town and so is my friend pez who i havent seen in a long time.were gonna go campin friday night and then saturday is my grad party. Eveyone should come and be sure to bring meh lots of money!! haha
Well i gotta get up early tom to go pick up muh cap and gown ill post some tom
peace up a town down
Brandon
Supposed to have an interview at hollister today but went there and didnt see anyone where i thought they were supposed to be so i gotta call tom and figure out whats goin on. I also have to stop by farm and fleet and possibly get a part time job there...Talked to dorf at zumiez and applied there today too hoping to get hired there been tryin to get one there since they opened..
Got my grad party this weekend lookin forward to that. Ill get to see some people i havent seen in a while and get to hang out with all muh friends. plus gets lots of money who doesnt like that haha.
Gotta go up to church tom to edit a promo for the rap video we shot last friday its gonna be hillarious ill def be postin it up on here when i get it finished...
It is a really weird feeling and hasn't really sunk in that im done with highscool. Part of is has sunk in and its mostly the fear of the unknown of course that has sunk in knowing that my life starts now. That the decision pretty much from now on that i make are going to effect my whole life its def a pretty intimidating and nerve racking feeelin.
Im super tired tho so im going to call it a night ill post some more tom.
Brandon
This was such a good fight. Jens didnt fight that well but it was still a battle of epic proportions. Jens was not aggresive at all and seem very passive but he will be back and come back with a fury.
I've decided that I am going to try to start blogging more, we will see how that works....
Life has been soo confusing and crappy lately. I am not being my true self and i know that I need to change that and start acting like that. The only problem is that i don't know what my true self is. It seems like im always tryin to act differently around who ever im with to try to fit in. Im not sure but im guessing that this comes from my self confidence issues and i just want to be accepted and liked but i realize that its not good for me to be like that and im going to work on changing that and be my self no matter who i am around. And just learn to live with the fact that some people arent going to like me.
I also have realized that i need to start living out my faith more. Its just something that is really hard to do because once again i want everyone to like me and i know that there is some people that wont like me because of the fact that i am a christian but i am starting to realize that i shouldnt care about those people. Why should i try to make everyone happy in this world and not make the person who created me and everything else happy.
On a lighter note i am super excited because tomorrow is finally my last day of high school! I am so excited to get out of there. I liked high school for a while when i used to party every weekend but high school is lame and annoying when you aren't going out and getting drunk every weekend cuz that is what pretty much every highschool kid does.
I am also super excited for the finals to start KB24 and teh lakers and going to take down the celtics fa sho.
I think im gonna call it a night tho and go to bed ill pry blog so more tom..
Brandon
