So ive been thinkin and reading other peoples blogs lately mainly doug and reeds and decided that im going to make a new blog with tumblr and also start changing some of the ways and things i post i wanna make it less serious and more fun.......tumblr so far is super confusing so it might be a little bit before i get everything up the way i want it but keep checkin back here and ill let you know when its done
I Decided that i am going to make a list of goals i have in the next year, and then life long goals, I want to see if looking at this list everyday will help me stay on top of these goals and help me actually accomplish them.
Within the next year I want to:
1) Become stronger in muh faith
2) Start working out
3) Play more basketball (try to actually be able to dunk)
4) Do better in school and take it more seriously
5) Figure out where im going to school next year
6) Learn to do a 360 snowboarding
7) Find a actual serious good girlfriend
8) Learn how to play guitar and get progressivly better (realize this will take more than a year to be really good)
9) Get atleast one more tattoo
10) Gain weight and be atleast 160 lbs
Life long goals
1) Be the first person in my immediate family to get a four year degree
2) Own my own clothing line (started forgiven but didn't have the resources or help needed so start it then)
3) Own my own business (pry a snowboarding shop type thing)
4) Play guitar in front of a crowd
5) Own a ten second car
6) Be married with kids
7) Learn how to surf
8) Live in cali
9) Travel the world
10) Make a difference in peoples lives
There are obliviously other things i want to accomplish but these are just things i came up with offf the top of my head.
Im going to bed
Peace
Brandon
I have begun to notice that I feel a lot better and am generally happier when I get everything I need to say out, however lately I seem to just bottle everything up until I explode on someone or freak out about little things. I am going to try to blog everyday to see if it cuts down on that....We will see how it goes...
I first wanna talk about college. Its a whole lot different than highschool in the sense that it counts for everything and you are paying a lot of money to go. I am struggling right now finding motivation to care about school and to do homework especially in my online class. Its all just going to take some getting used to the problem is i don't have much time i need to get my butt in gear now before I fall behind in all of my classes.
I haven't been a huge fan of the way my life's going right now.. I'm not really excited about anything happening in it besides buying my new car.. Tonight at my youth group I heard my youth pastor say something about how we have a purpose on this planet and its not to just live....That really hit me....I feel like right now im just living...Im not involved in too much I dont have a girl friend or anything I don't feel like I am helping anyone in anyway at all. I just feel like and know that god has so much more planned for me than this I just don't know what that is and i am starting to get really frustrated with it. I don't like it very much here in davenport right now I kinda feel like i need a change of scenory but im not sure where im supposed to go. I know I should just pray about it but its hard cuz once again like my youth pastor doug mentioned tonight Americans are all about instant satisfication and things like this can take time to sort out..
I guess im just frustrated with a lot of things and having school on top of it is making it all worse. Im gonna do some homework now tho. Im gonna try to get on tomorrow to post.
Brandon
I really dont even think any one reads this but yeah i dont care its pretty much just a place for me to vent. If you happen to come by this and read it and like it thats even better,
I wish i could get outta this town just for a few days. No cell phone no internet... No nothing just get away and think and almost like connect more with my self and god.. I dont work the rest of the week so im really thinkin about taking off and going some where i dont know where pretty much any where but here..
So ive been snoopin around on peoples my spaces and facebooks latley mainly cuz i have nothing to do ill get more into that later. But what ive noticed is that people are freakin obsessed with alcohal. Its seriously ridiculous this world would be a much better place without that crap. If your 21 and you want to a have a drink or two thats cool. But seriously whats up with everyones obsession with alochal? People seriously almost like worship it. Alcohal seems like a god to some people which is freakin crazy. NOTHING good comes from going out and getting drunk. Seriously, blacking out, hookin up with random people, drinkin and driving, fights, arguments, and the list goes on and on. I just dont get it. Yeah i used to drink so i guess i dont have room to talk but seriously take a friggen step back and look around at people. Go up to the fair and see all the losers that are so drunk they are falling over. Its not even just teenagers adults are horrible with it too. it takes over your life. Its an addiction. Its also expensive seriously just think about it if you do drink alot how much money you would save if you didnt drink. It just pisses me off. Most of the girls in this town seem to be obsessed with alcohal. I just dont understand.
I guess im just frustrated with life in general....I dont have a whole lot of friends right now...Not sayin that to make ya feel sorry for me but its true...Lets see here...Simon is married about to get a full time job and is busy a lot...Nick is married and has newborn kid and a job...Reezy full time job and leaving in like 2 weeks for school..Kdub busy alot and leaving for school in like 3 weeks...Jr busy with school all the time...Tyler busy with work and his gf all the time....The list goes on and on...Its just a hard part in my life right now i guess..I knew it was gonna happen especially with all of my friends being older but it just sucks right now
BLAHHi just wanna get awayy...
Im sick of this same routine im in. I am tired of all this bs. I need to and am going to start shaking some things up. If you dont like it not my problem deal with it. Im sick of feeling like no one takes me seriously at anything. I am not going to put up with it anymore. I dont care what people think of me anymore honestly if you dont like me oh well thats good for you but i really dont freakin care.....
I have decided lately that i want to try to find a girl to date and be serious with. Im 18 and i want to get married semi young so i figure now is a good time to start looking. Its just hard to try to find someone. Especially because girls are so hard to read. I can never seem to be able to tell what they are thinkin or how they actually feel never can tell if there joking around or being serious most the time and its super frustratinggg
I applied a bunch of places today hoping i get a job within the next week or so. That would mean i can finally get my tattoo and get a new car
Peace out
Brandon
So today was the most boring day of my life i think. I had to wake up at 9 am to go pick up my cap and gown which who ever designed those hats is an idiot they are the ugliest things i have ever seen in my life. But yeah any ways after that i tried to go back to sleep and of course i couldnt fall back asleep so i just got up a showered and stuff..Then from that point on i did absolutley nothing everyone i tried to hang out with was busy or something so i sat at home all friggen day by myself i about went crazy..
Tomorrow should be a much better day. i have to go set up my camper early tom morning me and some of my friends are camping out tom night and getting ready for my grad party tom so that should be a good time
Im going to bed tho
Brandon
Super excited for this weekend. Simon is coming to town and so is my friend pez who i havent seen in a long time.were gonna go campin friday night and then saturday is my grad party. Eveyone should come and be sure to bring meh lots of money!! haha
Well i gotta get up early tom to go pick up muh cap and gown ill post some tom
peace up a town down
Brandon
Supposed to have an interview at hollister today but went there and didnt see anyone where i thought they were supposed to be so i gotta call tom and figure out whats goin on. I also have to stop by farm and fleet and possibly get a part time job there...Talked to dorf at zumiez and applied there today too hoping to get hired there been tryin to get one there since they opened..
Got my grad party this weekend lookin forward to that. Ill get to see some people i havent seen in a while and get to hang out with all muh friends. plus gets lots of money who doesnt like that haha.
Gotta go up to church tom to edit a promo for the rap video we shot last friday its gonna be hillarious ill def be postin it up on here when i get it finished...
It is a really weird feeling and hasn't really sunk in that im done with highscool. Part of is has sunk in and its mostly the fear of the unknown of course that has sunk in knowing that my life starts now. That the decision pretty much from now on that i make are going to effect my whole life its def a pretty intimidating and nerve racking feeelin.
Im super tired tho so im going to call it a night ill post some more tom.
Brandon
This was such a good fight. Jens didnt fight that well but it was still a battle of epic proportions. Jens was not aggresive at all and seem very passive but he will be back and come back with a fury.
I've decided that I am going to try to start blogging more, we will see how that works....
Life has been soo confusing and crappy lately. I am not being my true self and i know that I need to change that and start acting like that. The only problem is that i don't know what my true self is. It seems like im always tryin to act differently around who ever im with to try to fit in. Im not sure but im guessing that this comes from my self confidence issues and i just want to be accepted and liked but i realize that its not good for me to be like that and im going to work on changing that and be my self no matter who i am around. And just learn to live with the fact that some people arent going to like me.
I also have realized that i need to start living out my faith more. Its just something that is really hard to do because once again i want everyone to like me and i know that there is some people that wont like me because of the fact that i am a christian but i am starting to realize that i shouldnt care about those people. Why should i try to make everyone happy in this world and not make the person who created me and everything else happy.
On a lighter note i am super excited because tomorrow is finally my last day of high school! I am so excited to get out of there. I liked high school for a while when i used to party every weekend but high school is lame and annoying when you aren't going out and getting drunk every weekend cuz that is what pretty much every highschool kid does.
I am also super excited for the finals to start KB24 and teh lakers and going to take down the celtics fa sho.
I think im gonna call it a night tho and go to bed ill pry blog so more tom..
Brandon
