Old enough to know yet too young to care

I have begun to notice that I feel a lot better and am generally happier when I get everything I need to say out, however lately I seem to just bottle everything up until I explode on someone or freak out about little things. I am going to try to blog everyday to see if it cuts down on that....We will see how it goes...

I first wanna talk about college. Its a whole lot different than highschool in the sense that it counts for everything and you are paying a lot of money to go. I am struggling right now finding motivation to care about school and to do homework especially in my online class. Its all just going to take some getting used to the problem is i don't have much time i need to get my butt in gear now before I fall behind in all of my classes.

I haven't been a huge fan of the way my life's going right now.. I'm not really excited about anything happening in it besides buying my new car.. Tonight at my youth group I heard my youth pastor say something about how we have a purpose on this planet and its not to just live....That really hit me....I feel like right now im just living...Im not involved in too much I dont have a girl friend or anything I don't feel like I am helping anyone in anyway at all. I just feel like and know that god has so much more planned for me than this I just don't know what that is and i am starting to get really frustrated with it. I don't like it very much here in davenport right now I kinda feel like i need a change of scenory but im not sure where im supposed to go. I know I should just pray about it but its hard cuz once again like my youth pastor doug mentioned tonight Americans are all about instant satisfication and things like this can take time to sort out..

I guess im just frustrated with a lot of things and having school on top of it is making it all worse.  Im gonna do some homework now tho. Im gonna try to get on tomorrow to post.

Brandon